Friday, January 6, 2012

Immaturity and overwhelming tiredness.

Hey there. Here to rant again.
If you hate rants, please don't read. Noone's asking you to read. Thanks.

Okay.
Something really incredibly disturbing happened to me today.
Okay, after cca, i was still wearing my noisy boots and i didn't realise until the time when we were leaving school. SO, i went back in and tried my best to quickly change my shoes. At most i took 1 minute.
D got mad and scolded me for making him wait for me so that he can lock the room, because he's the keyholder. I got a shock because i didn't think that anybody would get angry over this. I mean, what's the rush man? If you were rushing you could have gone off earlier right. He wanted me to change the ezlink card so that he wouldn't have to wait for me for 60 seconds. SERIOUSLY? You've got to be kidding me.
Then he threw his shoebag on the floor and waited for me.
After i was done, he locked the door and stomped off angrily.
So i went off to the bus stop. D missed his bus. And then it became my fault woohoo.
So all because of this stupid 60 seconds, everything has become my fault huh? Fine then.
Until i saw twitter. He ranted about me so obviously and scolded vulgar and all that immature shit.
There were a few on how i made him wait, like i intentionally like disturbing him like that wtf?
And then there was one about how he had feelings.
I MEAN, HELLO? NO LINK? IF HE HAVE FEELINGS, WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT I DON'T? I KNOW HE'S PISSED BUT HOW ABOUT ME, I JUST WANTED TO CHANGE MY SHOE GAWDDAMMIT. AND I GET THESE TYPE OF ACCUSATIONS ABOUT ME NOT CARING ABOUT HIS FEELINGS? RIDICULOUS.
I wouldn't do something like this to someone just to irritate them, let alone purposely make them pissed off so that they would accuse me and insult me.
And right, after these 4 years, i have heard many insults from him directed to me already, example, "short" "fat" "bitch" and a very rude "shut up la" with maybe a middle finger or just a finger pointed right at my face when i didn't even do anything, and also some fists shoved in front of my face.
I ignored them. Thinking they're friendly insults and he didn't mean any harm.
Now i get this shit. What was i thinking, not scolding him for lowering my self-esteem by like 80%.
Seriously i can't stand all this anymore. -.-
All this adding on to my fatigued-lackingofsleep-pissed-headachey-zombie self.
I really don't need this.

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