O level results out today!
Watching my seniors get their results, it makes me feel motivated, like "i wanna be just like them!"
But it's gonna take loads of effort to do it.
I don't know if i can do it or not sigh.
Yup anyway i'm single again.
Makes me feel like i was a toy.
Actually i kinda expected this because my looks, my figure, my brains, my personality; they're all not very good. Never expected anyone to even be attracted to me. It blew my mind, that we could last so long.
So i guess this is for everyone's own good.
Now move on and be happy. :)
He's gonna find someone else really soon, not unexpected because of his looks and charisma, what's there not to like?
Well, me? I'm gonna be living my life as a widow hohoho.
Not gonna get into any relationship so quickly already.
I've learnt my lesson the hard way. Forever doesn't last. :)
Feeling quite lonely these few days.
I miss him.
But i have to learn how to cope by myself.
Hope he will always be happy.
It's gonna take a long time to get over him.
But i'll do my best.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Immaturity and overwhelming tiredness.
Hey there. Here to rant again.
If you hate rants, please don't read. Noone's asking you to read. Thanks.
Okay.
Something really incredibly disturbing happened to me today.
Okay, after cca, i was still wearing my noisy boots and i didn't realise until the time when we were leaving school. SO, i went back in and tried my best to quickly change my shoes. At most i took 1 minute.
D got mad and scolded me for making him wait for me so that he can lock the room, because he's the keyholder. I got a shock because i didn't think that anybody would get angry over this. I mean, what's the rush man? If you were rushing you could have gone off earlier right. He wanted me to change the ezlink card so that he wouldn't have to wait for me for 60 seconds. SERIOUSLY? You've got to be kidding me.
Then he threw his shoebag on the floor and waited for me.
After i was done, he locked the door and stomped off angrily.
So i went off to the bus stop. D missed his bus. And then it became my fault woohoo.
So all because of this stupid 60 seconds, everything has become my fault huh? Fine then.
Until i saw twitter. He ranted about me so obviously and scolded vulgar and all that immature shit.
There were a few on how i made him wait, like i intentionally like disturbing him like that wtf?
And then there was one about how he had feelings.
I MEAN, HELLO? NO LINK? IF HE HAVE FEELINGS, WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT I DON'T? I KNOW HE'S PISSED BUT HOW ABOUT ME, I JUST WANTED TO CHANGE MY SHOE GAWDDAMMIT. AND I GET THESE TYPE OF ACCUSATIONS ABOUT ME NOT CARING ABOUT HIS FEELINGS? RIDICULOUS.
I wouldn't do something like this to someone just to irritate them, let alone purposely make them pissed off so that they would accuse me and insult me.
And right, after these 4 years, i have heard many insults from him directed to me already, example, "short" "fat" "bitch" and a very rude "shut up la" with maybe a middle finger or just a finger pointed right at my face when i didn't even do anything, and also some fists shoved in front of my face.
I ignored them. Thinking they're friendly insults and he didn't mean any harm.
Now i get this shit. What was i thinking, not scolding him for lowering my self-esteem by like 80%.
Seriously i can't stand all this anymore. -.-
All this adding on to my fatigued-lackingofsleep-pissed-headachey-zombie self.
I really don't need this.
If you hate rants, please don't read. Noone's asking you to read. Thanks.
Okay.
Something really incredibly disturbing happened to me today.
Okay, after cca, i was still wearing my noisy boots and i didn't realise until the time when we were leaving school. SO, i went back in and tried my best to quickly change my shoes. At most i took 1 minute.
D got mad and scolded me for making him wait for me so that he can lock the room, because he's the keyholder. I got a shock because i didn't think that anybody would get angry over this. I mean, what's the rush man? If you were rushing you could have gone off earlier right. He wanted me to change the ezlink card so that he wouldn't have to wait for me for 60 seconds. SERIOUSLY? You've got to be kidding me.
Then he threw his shoebag on the floor and waited for me.
After i was done, he locked the door and stomped off angrily.
So i went off to the bus stop. D missed his bus. And then it became my fault woohoo.
So all because of this stupid 60 seconds, everything has become my fault huh? Fine then.
Until i saw twitter. He ranted about me so obviously and scolded vulgar and all that immature shit.
There were a few on how i made him wait, like i intentionally like disturbing him like that wtf?
And then there was one about how he had feelings.
I MEAN, HELLO? NO LINK? IF HE HAVE FEELINGS, WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT I DON'T? I KNOW HE'S PISSED BUT HOW ABOUT ME, I JUST WANTED TO CHANGE MY SHOE GAWDDAMMIT. AND I GET THESE TYPE OF ACCUSATIONS ABOUT ME NOT CARING ABOUT HIS FEELINGS? RIDICULOUS.
I wouldn't do something like this to someone just to irritate them, let alone purposely make them pissed off so that they would accuse me and insult me.
And right, after these 4 years, i have heard many insults from him directed to me already, example, "short" "fat" "bitch" and a very rude "shut up la" with maybe a middle finger or just a finger pointed right at my face when i didn't even do anything, and also some fists shoved in front of my face.
I ignored them. Thinking they're friendly insults and he didn't mean any harm.
Now i get this shit. What was i thinking, not scolding him for lowering my self-esteem by like 80%.
Seriously i can't stand all this anymore. -.-
All this adding on to my fatigued-lackingofsleep-pissed-headachey-zombie self.
I really don't need this.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Here's to 2012!
Today's just like any normal sunday, just with lots more screaming and shouting.
Parents quarreled with my sister, she left house without her phone and i have no idea when she's gonna come back. But i don't blame her, if i were her i would do that too.
Yup anyway, 2012 is finally here. I'm sure the Mayans are wrong, we won't die, so i better work hard for Os!
It's gonna be a tough year full of no-life-ness and stressful times but we'll get through it.
Well,
I wanna thank him for always being there for me and even though there are times when i get pissed and take it out on him or when he or i did something wrong, pissing both of us in the process, but i still love him ttm.
Hope we'll be together forever and always, we'll overcome everything that comes our way, okay? :3
Hope i'll be the one that he still wants to be with maybe after 10 years down the road, and if i'm not, hope he'll always stay happy, wherever he goes. I love you! ♥
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