Some days stay gold forever.

Hi my beloved bloggy i know i haven't been blogging for an extremely long time because of the many things that have been going on in my life and yeahhh, all's going well! What with my O's ending soon and being able to spend all my time with my awesome friends. Butttt today's post isn't about my exams or my friends, it's about this great guy who has been there for me all this while.

Lim Wei Yang.

Tomorrow is our hundredth day together and it has been the best hundred days ever. There was a lot of crying and sneaking around during these hundred days but honestly, i feel happier than ever. He was there for me whenever i felt down, whenever i was whiny, whenever i felt like giving up, whenever i felt like the world wasn't doing me justice. He would always be there, supporting me and picking me back up.
I love how he's so insecure about himself, so i can tell him all the good points that i see in him.
I love how weird he is, so we can be weird together.
I love how smart and mature he is, but yet childish at times, so we can argue about intellectual things, yet argue about the most stupidest of things.
I love how we have the same thinking, how our minds seem to be connected, how many things we have in common, how our lives seem to be the same.

I love everything he doesn't love about himself.

He makes me feel loved and wanted. He makes me feel happy. He makes me feel warm inside.

Thank you for these hundred days. I'm sure that there will be many more days to come, many more memories to make together.

I have never regretted choosing you, and i never will. I hope you know that i'm just as afraid of losing you as you are of losing me. But we will go through thick and thin together, and overcome all the obstacles that come our way.

I love you Lim Wei Yang, and all these little things. ♥

Party like a rockstar can i get a what now

BACK. I have this urge to blog nowadays so i shall.
Haven't really been mugging that much these few days, slacking off with tuition too.
What's with all the speech day rehearsals, remedials, and some stupid stuff they make us go to.
Eg, next tuesday we have to go for some basketball tournament to support them, the finals i think. And we actually planned to stay back to practice our fancydrill so we can showcase it during speech day.
But now that time is gone. I mean seriously, why must the whole level go? I personally think that it'll only distract them lor seriously. But idk la coz i have never played in a match before. And UG go finals also nobody give a shit about it. Its always all about sports.
Doesn't matter though hoho.
Anyway, i have been feeling a little bit down the past month and i have no idea why.
So sorry to everyone i have pissed off and shouted at, if you want to hold grudges against me then fine, i'm not blaming you. Just don't go broadcasting and spreading shit about me to every friend of yours.
You say i'm a hypocrite, you say i'm a two-faced bitch.
Sure, i'm not afraid to admit that i am one, who haven't been one before seriously you honestly tell me.
Right now i think you're the bigger hypocrite though, no offence.
You say you hate all of us, but why are you acting as if we were awesome friends?
You hated us from last year all the way until now, still say i'm a hypocrite?
Tak boleh tahan.

Putting this nonsense aside, today was SPORTS DAY wooooo.
Being a medic for the last time in sports day is so damn depressing but i'm super happy coz i actually helped a handful of people today!
For the past two years i never had a chance to treat or comfort and take care of anybody in sports day before. Crudely put, the position i was assigned to the past two years never did have any business.
I have this strong urge to be a paramedic now lor, after watching 995 and after today's experience haha.
It's really a beautiful thing to be able to save lives, but i'm not really confident about my first aid skills so either i brush up on that or scratch that ahaha.
Heading off for tuition soon, tomorrow's a damn long day i feel so damn lazy tomorrow i don't feel like doing anything i just want to lay in my bed and waste my time away as the seconds and minutes and hours tick by then before i know it Os are here and i will fail and die in Dec 2012.
LOL sorry i'm ranting just kidding i really have to pick myself up again if not i can guarantee myself i'm going to freaking suffer and cry my ass off during Os in Oct argh.


THERE'S PHYSICS SPA NEXT THURSDAY -FREAKS OUT-
We've been through so many crests and troughs, my energy level during the physics spa shall follow the law of conservation of energy, to not be able to be destroyed. :P

SAYNOTOBULLYING.

The small guy is how i felt like all day.
Playing/teasing is one thing, getting bullied is another.
I'm not saying it's wrong to tease someone for fun but know your limits.
Please, know when to stop. Don't take people's kindness for granted.
Just because the victim is short and weak and doesn't scold you doesn't mean you can push him/her around right?
AND. Bullying others as a result of getting bullied too often is NOT acceptable.
You of all people should know how much it hurts, more than anybody else.

I really don't understand why and how you can bully others without feeling guilty or bad.
Playing 'catch me if you want your pencil case back' in the hallways is no laughing matter.
What if somebody gets hurt? What if you throw it and OOPS it flies off the railings and into the bushy bushes down below? THEN you say sorry is it?

ALSO, DON'T FREAKING RAPE PEOPLE IN CLASS. TOUCH WOOD, BUT SOMEBODY'S GOING TO GET HURT ONE DAY AND THEN YOU'LL REGRET.

Stop while you can.
Say no to bullying.




HAHAHA LIKE ADVERTISEMENT. Okay anyway i'm damn shit serious. Stop being so childish dammit!

It's not over tonight.

HEYTHEREY'ALL. My freaking 'enter' button's down so i have to type like this without the paragraphing! SO ANNOYING. I think i shall restart my comp after this HAHA.

(OH HEY IT'S WORKING AGAIN)

Yup k anyway i went out with Yiling to de-stress today.
Bought some awesome clothes and stationery and shit and i feel so happy~
School starts again tomorrow then it's tuition tuition tuition speechdayrehearsal speechdayrehearsal speechdayrehearsal whoopee.
Anyway life's been good. I guess i'm doing fine without him.
Time is really all i need huh. Even though i kinda just a LEETLE bit broke down yesterday night but IT'S ALL GOOD.
Have been watching Rescue 995 on channel8 last week.
Last 5 episodes already! Then it's back to not rushing back home before 9 everyday LOLOL.
I'm so hungry now i could puke my gastric juices out.
Okay seeyou i'll probably go back to blogging more regularly after Os ba.
I'm terrified for The Exam but there's nothing i can do, gotta face it and conquer it YO. I better prove to myself that i can do well argh.
My common test results were not bad except for Humans and Physics so i have to work harder.
It's just common test anyway, so even if i did well for some subjects i have to work way harder man.

TATA LOVELIES.

That's life.

Hello figments of my imagination! ^^
I bet nobody is reading this right now because i have been MIA for so long already that people got pissed off while waiting for a post to appear, if there even were readers in the first place. ~
Kay yup anyway i have been busy with craploads of tuition, cca events etcetc, i barely have a life right now.
Currently there's the mentorship programme on saturday mornings, clashing with my chem/emath tuition.
SO.
I have to reschedule that tuition to WEDNESDAY.
The only weekday that i'm free to rest or study even more.
And then i'm officially busy the whole week except for SUNDAY.
I really really can't wait for Os to be over.
It's still a long way to go but i really wish it'll be over soon.
AND I BETTER GET GOOD RESULTS ARGH.
Okay peace byebye. I go cry myself to sleep now.

It's gonna be hard.

O level results out today!
Watching my seniors get their results, it makes me feel motivated, like "i wanna be just like them!"
But it's gonna take loads of effort to do it.
I don't know if i can do it or not sigh.
Yup anyway i'm single again.
Makes me feel like i was a toy.
Actually i kinda expected this because my looks, my figure, my brains, my personality; they're all not very good. Never expected anyone to even be attracted to me. It blew my mind, that we could last so long.
So i guess this is for everyone's own good.
Now move on and be happy. :)
He's gonna find someone else really soon, not unexpected because of his looks and charisma, what's there not to like?
Well, me? I'm gonna be living my life as a widow hohoho.
Not gonna get into any relationship so quickly already.
I've learnt my lesson the hard way. Forever doesn't last. :)

Feeling quite lonely these few days.
I miss him.
But i have to learn how to cope by myself.
Hope he will always be happy.
It's gonna take a long time to get over him.
But i'll do my best.

Immaturity and overwhelming tiredness.

Hey there. Here to rant again.
If you hate rants, please don't read. Noone's asking you to read. Thanks.

Okay.
Something really incredibly disturbing happened to me today.
Okay, after cca, i was still wearing my noisy boots and i didn't realise until the time when we were leaving school. SO, i went back in and tried my best to quickly change my shoes. At most i took 1 minute.
D got mad and scolded me for making him wait for me so that he can lock the room, because he's the keyholder. I got a shock because i didn't think that anybody would get angry over this. I mean, what's the rush man? If you were rushing you could have gone off earlier right. He wanted me to change the ezlink card so that he wouldn't have to wait for me for 60 seconds. SERIOUSLY? You've got to be kidding me.
Then he threw his shoebag on the floor and waited for me.
After i was done, he locked the door and stomped off angrily.
So i went off to the bus stop. D missed his bus. And then it became my fault woohoo.
So all because of this stupid 60 seconds, everything has become my fault huh? Fine then.
Until i saw twitter. He ranted about me so obviously and scolded vulgar and all that immature shit.
There were a few on how i made him wait, like i intentionally like disturbing him like that wtf?
And then there was one about how he had feelings.
I MEAN, HELLO? NO LINK? IF HE HAVE FEELINGS, WHAT MAKES HIM THINK THAT I DON'T? I KNOW HE'S PISSED BUT HOW ABOUT ME, I JUST WANTED TO CHANGE MY SHOE GAWDDAMMIT. AND I GET THESE TYPE OF ACCUSATIONS ABOUT ME NOT CARING ABOUT HIS FEELINGS? RIDICULOUS.
I wouldn't do something like this to someone just to irritate them, let alone purposely make them pissed off so that they would accuse me and insult me.
And right, after these 4 years, i have heard many insults from him directed to me already, example, "short" "fat" "bitch" and a very rude "shut up la" with maybe a middle finger or just a finger pointed right at my face when i didn't even do anything, and also some fists shoved in front of my face.
I ignored them. Thinking they're friendly insults and he didn't mean any harm.
Now i get this shit. What was i thinking, not scolding him for lowering my self-esteem by like 80%.
Seriously i can't stand all this anymore. -.-
All this adding on to my fatigued-lackingofsleep-pissed-headachey-zombie self.
I really don't need this.

Here's to 2012!

Today's just like any normal sunday, just with lots more screaming and shouting.

Parents quarreled with my sister, she left house without her phone and i have no idea when she's gonna come back. But i don't blame her, if i were her i would do that too.

Yup anyway, 2012 is finally here. I'm sure the Mayans are wrong, we won't die, so i better work hard for Os!

It's gonna be a tough year full of no-life-ness and stressful times but we'll get through it.

Well,

I wanna thank him for always being there for me and even though there are times when i get pissed and take it out on him or when he or i did something wrong, pissing both of us in the process, but i still love him ttm.

Hope we'll be together forever and always, we'll overcome everything that comes our way, okay? :3

Hope i'll be the one that he still wants to be with maybe after 10 years down the road, and if i'm not, hope he'll always stay happy, wherever he goes. I love you! ♥