Our Love.

I remember the first time we started taking note of each other's existence.
That was about a year ago, when we were Secondary 4.
I remember our form teacher showing us a seating plan via the projector, and i found out that i was sitting next to you. I remember a classmate telling me 'good luck' as a joke, because he was your previous seating partner. So i shook my head in response, not noticing that glance you threw me while doing so.
I can't remember when the first time we actually talked was, but i think it was when i asked you to explain a mathematics question that i didn't understand.
I was interested in you.
You seemed like an interesting person and you attracted me.
I'm not sure if i told you this before, but i actually tried getting closer to you, once.
When i heard from a friend that you were going to school during the holidays for a CCA camp, while i was having mine, i got your number from him and made up an excuse to meet you, by asking if you had any wooden chopsticks that you could pass to me for my camp.
Too bad you fell sick and didn't show up for your camp.
That's the most i remember from before we became closer.

During the holidays, you invited me out for a movie, but i felt awkward so i invited a bunch more people to join us, spoiling all your plans. I remember after the movie, when we were both home, we whatsapped each other until 12, telling each other all our deepest, darkest secrets. I think, that was when you started having feelings for me, somehow.
You would whatsapp me often and tell me sweet, mushy things which made me feel all warm and tingly inside. I wasn't sure of my feelings, and i wasn't sure of what i should make of your feelings.
You dropped hints that were so obvious anyone could see it, but i chose to pretend that i didn't understand, for fear that you would make me decide when i wasn't ready.
Months passed, and you would accompany me to my tuition centre weekly, even though all you did was follow me there and go home after i'm gone. I was too shy and awkward to say anything to you during our walks to the centre, because i knew your feelings and i was afraid of doing anything i would regret.
One day, you offered to send me to my tuition centre, as usual.
But i blew up at you and scolded you, hurting you really badly in the process.

From that day onwards, i realised that i didn't want to hurt you anymore, because i might actually have feelings for you.
It pained me, knowing that i could hurt someone like that, and i realised how much you loved me.
A few more weeks passed, and we got closer everyday.
As i started to talk to you more and got to know you more, my feelings for you gradually increased.
On a Saturday, we had our first kiss at the void deck of my grandma's house. Or kisses, i should say.
And on 1st August 2012, you confessed to me once again and i kissed you as confirmation.
We have been together ever since,
and not a day goes by that i'm not grateful for you.

Not good enough.

Hi again non-existent readers~
Today was practical day haha 6 hours of practical. 3 hours of Animal Anatomy and 3 hours of Microbio!
It didn't really feel tiring at first and time passed super quickly but after that...
EXHAUSTED.
And when i reached home i realised how freaking messed up my fringe was and nobody told me argh.
Okay anyway went to donate blood after school. Or at least, tried to.
Sooo i filled up the health declaration form, went to register, went to the doctor to check BP, then went to check the haemoglobin level in my blood. They pricked my finger and did a quick test and said 'Okay! Can go donate already'.
So i happily went to the last area, sat on the lounge chair thingy, got a blanket and a stress ball thingy, and a woman came to put the BP thingy on me again.
She pumped it or smth, tried it on both arms.
Then after a few seconds, she looked at me and said, 'Too small ah, try again in 6months to 1 year's time'.
Lol whatthefuck.
So i was just like '...okay.' D:
I don't even know what thing too small sia. Vein?
Somemore i was so hyped up for it HAISH.
I think it's coz i was too cold that's why my that thing too small HAHA. I was shivering and all somemore but they didn't even care tsk.
Oh well, one more thing to add to my Things To Do Before I Die list~

Souvenir teehee.

And.. got back my first two test results today + one practical ws.
They weren't up to standard, is all i can say.
Most of my classmates got really good results, some even full marks.
I don't know what i did wrong sia. Seriously.
They're all counted in my GPA and i'm screwing it up.
Damn it yunrong, buck the fuck up.
Don't be such a lazy stupid pig.
If not you can say byebye to your 3.8 GPA already.

Ranting saves lives.

Hello non-existent readers.
So the reason why i haven't been posting is because poly life has started and i am dead tired and fucked up.
WARNING. This post is purely a rant.
Shoo, now go away.

Okay. So. I got into my dream course somehow, miracle or something, but the down side is that the people here are SMART. They're all 5-pointers or 7-pointers but me? I'm a 9-pointer. That's the lowest in the class. And every time they talk about getting A1s for like almost all their subjects, I feel sucky. I didn't get a single A1. And then i just like nod and smile and pretend that i'm as smart as them too. I know i shouldn't compare to them and whatnot but it's really difficult. My course is extremely competitive and only 5 people out of 50 with a 3.8 GPA can enter the affiliated university in Australia. Do you know how difficult that is lol. And my class isn't very bonded, you could say. Everybody is split up into their own little cliques and since i'm not 'popular', i get ignored a lot i guess. I try to make more friends, i try and try and try. But in the end i still can't find someone that i'm close with. Nobody that i bond with, nobody i can be good friends with. There is one girl though, but she's in another class and that just sucks fucking balls. Another thing is, i had to partner with a guy for lab practicals and projects and shit and his personality.... is fucked. Even other people think so. He's kind of annoying and he's damn asshole. He called me fat today. I left my house in the morning feeling happy, self confidence quite high and all, and then he had to call me fat. And i left school feeling like complete and utter shit. It wasn't a joke. Definitely wasn't a joke. He was serious. I mean like, i know i'm fucking fat la can, you don't have to tell me. You think i don't go home and see my stupid belly everyday? You think my self-esteem is as fucking high as yours? You can't tell a girl that she's fat. After he told me that i had to act like it was funny and laugh at myself. That hurt. So much. Only girls will understand me i think. You see, even though i like what i'm studying (even though my brain is melting) but if i don't like the people around me, it will affect my studies too. I don't know why people judge so much. I don't get it.
Right now, i feel like nobody understands me at all.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm feeling alone.
Alone in this wide world.

Anyway, going to be donating blood tomorrow. Kind of wish they would do something wrong and all my blood would somehow be sucked up and i'll shrivel up and wilt. At least they would have my blood to save other people's lives. Ha. Ha.

SINGAPORE ZOO

Hi i'm back again since i'm damn bored right now i shall blog about my zoo trip on the 4th of December last freaking year~

First animal we saw was the cotton top tamarin! 

So cute. I went quite close to it somemore! It's trying to eat some stuff on the floor or something who knows.

Mouse deer!

White tigers hungry for food nomnom.

Just strollin' in the water.

NICE RIGHT. Look like angels.

Some random fish with a long nose/mouth thing.

HIPPOPOTAMUS. Did i spell that right?

Reptilez.

Watchiu lookin' at.

Guess what this is.

A kangaroo lying a bed of weeds HAHA.

Gobble gobble.

Before i took this picture we saw Izyan and Jeroemy wtf. So coincidental what is this.

Big tortoises!

Orangutan.

Otter i think, so cute!

Ostrich among bushes :3

Ox issit what is this.

Lazy leopard.

Rhino butts.

Zebra!

Some piggies or warthogs i think.

Meerkats!

Giraffes. I think if i stand next to them i'll only be until their knees LOL.

The king of the jungle.

Naked naked naked mole rat~

Monkey! Don't know what species is this :P

Green long snake.

Turtle pressed up against the glass HAHA.

Python issit. I also don't know.

Giant humongous tortoises!

Look at the bats all huddled up there! How come they won't fly away de ah.

Penguins! 

Pressing against the glass again LOL.  

Pony!

Nomnomnom.

Oh this goat was damn noisy la he kept making weird loud noises and banging against the gate with his horns wtf idk what's his problem. Maybe he's aggressive that's why they lock him inside O:

BUNNIES.

Gettin ready for phototaking!

More bunnies. And my photos are all mixed up and i can't be bothered to sort them out properly so there might be repetitive photos!

Daring kids. I didn't even dare to touch the goat coz i was afraid it would hit me with its horns or something.

Hello! :D

Unglam Probocis (?) monkeys with their long noses (C:

Centipede eew.

Tarantula double eewww.

Cool horned frogs! Can you spot em ~

Butterflies!

Mouse deer again.

Parrots.

Ducks. Omg i typed F instead of D by accident HAHA.

Just keep swimming.

Cool looking bird.

What is this.

LEMUR!

LEMUR BUTT.

We didn't bring any cameras so we were both using our noob phones the whole time to take pictures LOL. So professional right.

A bat!! So close to us.

More bats in the distance! Tried to get shots of them flying coz i thought it was awesome but didn't manage to get any.

Climb bat climb!

More lemurs in holes.

Eew beetles.

They have nice rings on their tails!

Stick insect. Freaking looks like a leaf.

Cockroaches.

SPIDERS.

Scorpion wtf.

Beetle.

Orangutans. Look at the one with the baby!!!

Waiting for the show to start.

Made him camwhore with me.

During the show.

After the show we walked around a bit more and left! And it was raining also wtf it always rains when me and yang go places hais. Also, we bought the combo thingy which meant that we could go to the Singapore Zoo and the Night Safari too + a tram ride. 

But the next day we had work so we decided to go Night Safari on another day, Christmas eve! 

I shall not blog about that because there aren't many pictures.

Everything was dark and there were so few animals, most of them were hiding or sleeping or whatever (even though they're supposed to be nocturnal animals).

Yeah but overall it was a good experience there ^_^

But after all, going anywhere is fun when it's with your loved one right? HEHE.